This chapter of life feels uniquely slow.
How could that be? There is wedding planning, family is expanding, new experiences every single day & hours seem to fly by. Yet I take one minute to myself and feel I am not keeping up with the rest of the world in spite of these joyful happenings.
I don’t feel useless or unimportant; in fact, I feel more deeply loved & in tune with my abilities than ever before. I feel fearless and productive..but I also feel I am waiting.
If you know me, you know waiting & being patient aren’t the top skills on my resume. But I have grown to recognize that my old habits of plowing full speed ahead at all times, wasn’t exactly getting me anywhere.
This season of my life has been focused on stillness.
“The Lord will fight for you, you only need to be still.” Exodus 14:14
We cannot clearly hear God’s voice when we move through our to-do lists at a rapid rate. We can only hear our own voice & voices from society telling us we have to do more. I got really trapped in moving through day to day decisions quickly, and desiring immediate gratification.
I never want to go back to that.
I don’t want to be average, have the same story as my neighbor, or one day look back and say “what if”.
This season is slow & my life looks different than everyone else around me. And while I have very human moments of just wanting answers or wanting my life to look like someone else’s; I don’t want to shake the stillness.
From stillness will come greatness & I want to be great for Him.